I live through my pain.

I know what it’s like to live in a world where sadness overflows. Where it’s dark, colorless and gloomy. Sleepless nights awake crying followed by sleepy days wasted moping. When everyday feels like a burden, nothing seems worth fighting through the pain. 


I now know what it’s like to live in a world full of light. Positivity radiates and fills my sight with each and every color that exists. I have a new sense of sleepless nights. Excitement for what tomorrow holds. I can’t wait for the sun to rise on a new day filled with opportunity. I trust myself to make everyday a beautiful one. It is my choice to feel vibrant from existence.  


I live through my pain because I know what’s waiting for me if I do. More laughter, more dancing, more love and light to come. More places I’ve never seen, experiences yet to be had. I’m alive and I get to live. I fight through the pain because of that. Because I love being happy and I want to experience joy each and everyday.

I fight for my brother. I know how happy my happiness made him. His future lost, but mine still capable. I fight for my parents. They have always fought for me and I want to assure them I won’t crumble. I am here. My mind is powerful. My attitude sparkles my path, leading a bright future. I fight for everyone who has ever been handed excuse after excuse to give up.

Our ride can’t be taken without both ups and downs. We know life throws curveballs, bruising, deep in the stomach curveballs. So we pick up the ball and continue to play. We remember our scars but we heal. A new day, a new opportunity. I cherish the moments, the memories, the feelings that are included in this gift of life.

It’s a magical thing to accept life’s charm when it is life itself that also knocks us down. To understand the blessings while they include such tragedy. Nothing is perfect. Without the dark colors we wouldn’t know how beautiful the rest of the palette is. Life can disguise itself in ugly, horrendous forms. The bigger picture though, life is everything we make it to be.

Have yourself a good day. Smile, enjoy conversation, a yummy meal, the sky or the song you listen to. The opportunity to be happy is always there, you just need to want it.