I grew up in a small town outside of Boston. My style, my vibe and my identity, as most children, changed quite frequently. Most of my phases revolved around my obsession of that time. Elmo: Young, fun and vibrant. The OC: Chokers, heels, put together on the outside but not at all on the inside. Hockey: Sporty, chill, relaxed. While I don’t intend on settling with a permanent identity, I have found a more secure sense of myself.
It was my time living alone that accelerated these discoveries. My first apartment, no roommates, no supervisors, just an adult doing life on my own. No one to sway my choices. How loud I played my music, what I watched on TV, what I cooked or how I spent my time. The only thing guiding me was my intuition. My callings and my willingness to follow them.
I am coming up on my five year anniversary since moving to California. A calling that in ways pulled at me for over a decade, but came to fruition in one fell swoop. A move inspired by my passion to explore.
My adult phase is by far my most exciting. Adventurous, independent, confident. A fluid combination of beachy and woodsy. Free-spirited and wild, but simple and subtle. I am, for sure, a California girl.
I just got back to Boston for my first East Coast summer since I left and it feels strange. In some ways, I still feel like I belong. Life is familiar yet so dramatically different. This city carries so much meaning in my heart. The place where I turned my life around. Where I became something for myself and with myself. Who I am today, after five years living in Los Angeles, stems from who I was in Boston. I am still connected and with that I am reminded of the consistency in my matured identity.
While I believe humans evolve until the day we die, I am starting to understand a more stable idea of being. I have considered myself nomadic in this last phase of my life, but I am comforted by this feeling I have now. Home lives inside of me. Security is within my mind. No matter where I go or what new passions may shape my style, I am open-minded, grateful and free. I am me.