People often ask me if I’m scared for my surgery. The truth is I’m only scared it won’t work. Scared my pain won’t go away but also concerned about who I’ll be if it does. Am I able to bring back the qualities of myself I thought were lost because of the pain?
Luckily I can trust myself. I know I’m a strong enough person to achieve what I set my mind to. It will be a journey, often a battle, but I know once my parts are repaired, I’ll be able to go anywhere and do anything. Once I’m able, I will put in the work to build my life around my morals. Being who I want to be and going above and beyond for those around me will be my reality again. But for now I rest. Feeling guilty about focusing on myself during this time is only wasted energy. I must take care of me as I get ready for this battle. I am under construction now but soon I'll have new foundation and the strength to take on the world again, even better than before.